Broken Promises

I'm tired of hoping things would be better
I'm tired of hearing that things will be okay
I'm tired of faking a smile when it doesn't belong
I'm tired of worrying about losing you
I'm tired of being so intimidated by you
I'm tired of changing my appearance for you
I'm tired of trying to please you constantly

I'm tired of not only hoping that you wont break your promises; I'm not only tired of hearing your broken promises; I'm tired of pretending to believe your promises; I'm tired of wondering when you're going to break your promises; I'm tired of being promised something without your intention of keeping that promise; I'm tired of changing myself so I don't have to deal with your broken promises; & tired of trying to believe your promises - but I'm tired of feeling your broken promises.

My Sundays always consist of just sitting around and being lazy. Therefore that is what is happening today. Me and mom went to walgreens this morning and I got the April issue of Vogue, some candy, and a blue gatorade. My mind has been on Tyler a lot lately and he's not exactly being the best boyfriend figure to me lately, so I need things to keep my mind of it and and keep me from stressing. My best friend is coming over tonight so I'm happy about that because when I'm with her, things don't hurt so bad.

The other day my mom so rudely insulted me by giving me this and telling me I was pale. I mean, I agree 100% but she didn't have to be so blunt about it. Anyway, it is spring so I suppose I could use a little color. So for now until it actually stays warm enough for me to be out and about to tan, this is what I plan to use. I'll be sure to write a review on it once I've used it for a week or two to tell how well it works.

Excuse my eyes... I'm really not asian or anything, it's just how the picture turned out. This was taken at the apple store at the mall here. I went to the mall last night with my best friend Allie and we hung out with a few people. All in all it was a pretty good night until the end. And when we got home but we won't mention that, we'll just leave that in the past because it's not worth worrying about in the future.

And of course an update on miss Raina. She's doing so perfect. She has a liddol scratch on her nose though from her long fingernails. She's growing so fast, and she'll be 3 months old in 3 days. (The 6th.) Her daddy is going to come see her this weekend. I'm actually really excited. I love it when she sees her daddy.

An update on everything!

Tomorrow my day will consist of baking cookies and other treats my niece's classes. Every Friday they have "fun Friday" after school and they ask people to volunteer to bring in snacks for the kids. My niece's always like bringing stuff, and we haven't made anything for it yet so why not. I love making things like cookies and brownies, (2 of the things I can actually cook without burning down the house) and it's for a good cause other than me just eating them to be fat. Hmph. Usually I wouldn't interfere this much with their school seeing as my mom does those kinds of things with them, but to be completely honest, I have nothing better to do O.o

Also, the other night I dyed my hair back completely black. Somehow it turned out darker than it's ever been, but I'm really happy with it and I think it looks good. My hair is extremely curly, so tonight I went ahead and straightened it. For anyone wondering, I use an Ache straightener thats about an inch and a half wide along with a cheap Conair one thats much wider.

And a little update on my little girl. She's doing amazing, she's healthy, growing wonderfully, she's doing really good with sitting her head up, and you can tell she's trying to talk. She's been making noises lately other than just the little "uh's" and "oohs." It's so adorable. Everything is going spectacular with her except our sleeping schedule. That needs to be adjusted asap. It's honestly just getting worse. Neh.

First post!

April has almost begun and I am so excited for warm weather, and spring of course. In KY the weather seems to want to flip flop between 70 degrees and 30. Even at this time of the year. But anyway, my first post to this blog will be my wishlist for this month. I plan to do one of these at the beginning of every month.

1.) A cute bag or purse. As of right now I'm carrying all my stuff around either in a diaper bag, my hands, or my pockets. Something needs to be done about that. I want something big so I never have to worry about running out of space.

2.) A new blackberry cover! The one I have right now I am so tired of. It was cute at first but now it's the most hideous blackberry cover I have seen. It's just a little too plain for my liking anymore.

3.) A new healthy set of shampoo/conditioner. The one pictured is Organix Cherry Blossom. It seems pretty cheap but as if it might be one of the few inexpensive products that actually can be put to good use.

4.) MAC blush. Everyone knows I absolutely adore all MAC products. This is one that I haven't tried yet. And for spring, my face could use a bit of color. (Especially seeing how I don't tan easy :p)

5.) NARS bronzer. I haven't ever used a NARS product, but every review I've gotten everyone says it works wonderfully.

6.) Clinique tinted Moisturizer. I really am in need of a type of foundation/concealer that works well but is still healthy for my skin. Right now I'm using MAC studio fix, and it works okay I suppose, but it makes my skin feel really dry.

7.) Pink Vans. Because every girl who is as girly as me probably has these on their wishlist if they don't already have a pair. Only thing is, I have yet to find a store who has them :/

8.) Conair infiniti. Out of everything on this wishlist this is probably the thing I want the most. I've watched so many hair tutorials on youtube with people curling their hair with this. It looks like it works great, and it's not extremely expensive like many other hair curlers.